Britney wrote 'suicide note'

OUT-of-control singer Britney Spears has written a suicide note detailing how things would be better if she was dead, it has emerged. A friend of the 26-year-old found the note before her infamous Beverly Hills meltdown this month. It reportedly told of Spears' loneliness and fear of not living up to the expectations of fans and family. The star has been suffering with mental problems including depression and possible multiple personality disorder "for years" - but docs say she needs urgent help as her condition seems to be worsening. Another bizarre incident came to light overnight when Britain's The Sun newspaper revealed Spears emerged from a clothes shop changing room nude after spending 45 minutes inside with her British photographer lover Adnan Ghalib. An assistant said they made “weird” noises like they were having sex - and Spears swore at staff when she left. “She was slurring and spitting," one worker told the paper. "Her face was covered with cold sores and acne, and her scalp was patchy.” It has also been reported that Spears lost the right to see her sons after missing a vital court date in her child-custody battle because she was too busy waiting for a home furniture delivery. Spears' suicide note was found in her bathroom just before she was rushed to a psychiatric ward after refusing to hand her sons to Federline’s security guards. It was discovered by a friend who thought it “a cry for help”. “The letter was very sad," an insider said. "Britney talked about her loneliness, how unfair life is and not being able to trust people. “She wrote about how she will never be what people want her to be. She said, ‘Perhaps it would be better if I was dead’.” When confronted, The Sun revealed Spears laughed it off and said: “Everybody thinks about death.” Spears' manic depression is also known as bipolar disorder. The source said: “She also has something much more serious she doesn’t want to talk about. “She may have multiple personality disorder. And she had post-natal depression after both births.”